Procrastination

Categorize these things, I wrote to myself in my little book, the ones important enough to explore. Listing is a talent all good analysts and bad procrastinators share. Alright, well - Foremost is beauty, always, as it encompasses all the lovely vaguest of notions, the ones we fixate on, as part of the Condition (yes, the condition, very austere).

1. Potential hypothesis of the day (yes, redundant) :

In our slight wave pool, masking us from solid air, joining us one to the other is that slice of current we call Beauty.
From me to you to someone to noone, just as a spark of electricity from one metal plugged-in static-ball will even make the arm fuzz of noone-on-the-end stretch out, if all are tuned to it, clasping on, holding hands in a line, in a circuit. (Who is the person whose hand is actually touching the ball, the first to grab on? And what exactly IS the ball? Here is philosophy in a nutshell, though I’m heading toward the deer-breathing-inside-a-bubble level of analogy hell). So in the impossible utopian (redundant again) society, we are all connected, being electrocuted together into a state of bliss or somesuch thing, and we’ll call that the ideal happiness. BUT, being that as it is, impossible, we must figure out how the chain came to be broken, and why this bliss is now only shared between a small number of people, usually two, at a time -these two being the Happy Couple, soulmates, or even best friends. What we perceive as true love could very well be the remnant of some universal bond we either no longer have or are, as a society in whole, are too distracted or underaware to notice. Assuming it is possible for the individual to tap into the original source of analogy number one - the ball (a sort of nirvana, I suppose, though don’t quote me on that), how is it related to the ecstasy of love shared between only two people? Should we work toward that enlightenment, or return to unity, as segmented groups or pairs, because the circuit between only two has a very short circumference, and will somehow generate great power in its speed backandforth metoyou someonetonoone? Yes, I believe, I will flatly say that is my point - believe it or not I had one. Yes, the hypothesis is (and mind how I am defining these words so you will be sure to confuse mine with your own definitions): Love is a means of discovering Beauty (my love for you (or someone’s love for noone) will help us both to feel those currents mentioned in the very beginning - a heightened state of awareness brought about by each petal’s removal -unclosure, the senses are primed, the eyes open, the heart races), awareness of Beauty heightens Love (this is where that ball comes into play, but the deer in the bubble is suffocating - the idea, somewhat, is that finding the links between us - remember we are calling Beauty universal, a state among us all we can all tap into - will bring us all back together in love - seeing beauty shows us the love in others, reduces isolation). Tangled words, but a flow chart, you see: cyclic flow. And that could be, I suppose, how it is.

“or if your wish be to close me, i and my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly” (eec)

(I suspect this is really quite simple.)

Sixth Practice: To rely on a spiritual friend who has eliminated all illusions, whose competence in the teachings and practice is complete, and whose qualities increase like the crescent moon; to cherish this perfect guru more than one’s own body is a practice of the bodhisattva.
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Twenty-second Practice: All that appears comes from an illusion of the mind and the mind itself is from beginningless time without inherent existence, free from the two extremes of manifestation (eternalism and nihilism) and beyond all elaboration. To understand this nature (Tathata) and not to conceive of subjects and objects as really existing is a practice of the bodhisattva.

2. Subjects and Objects

Whether this or that amounts to much more than a vitamin C drop (they really take like grapefruit!) I haven�t a clue.

“Tolstoy, in general” is included on the list. (I should be working on that research paper, I stopped on page nine, trying to figure out how to incorporate something I read about Anna and eudaimonia.) I would have followed him around like a disciple, I�m realizing more and more. Maybe it�s the beard, or the truth that that essay “What is Art?” has scared me to the point of tears twice now, primary and secondary sources. I’m afraid it’s because I agree, yet I can not create based on the principle that my desired message must be conveyed or failure shall result. I am not that strong, I gloss things over with abstraction and the whole dogma that a work of art must have a different meaning for everyone really, as we all bring out own emotional baggage to the viewing window. For someone like me, an mediocre painter and wordsmith alike, it seems as if it should be enough that the work in question inspires any response whatsoever. “Does it speak to you?” as silly as it is, is enough for the amateur artist. “Does it make you think?”

WHAT does it make you think? That should be the primary question. I shamefully admit to desiring first to make something pretty or something pretentious, something the audience will at least not ridicule.

To inspire a specific emotional response, through art, to be able to set out with that purpose, to make them see something I saw, or feel something I felt, and to attain it - person by person, they come away with the same vision, or slightly.. it is simply too much. I do not know that I could attain such a feat and still keep my eyes on the ground long enough to keep myself from tripping over a garden hose, honestly.

(But yes, Mr. Tolstoi, Tolstoj, he had a peasant mistress later in life. And did you know about the school at Yasnaya Polyana? Over the door: “Enter and Leave Freely.” He had a school for peasant children so that they -wouldn’t- progress from the muddy state of things in Russia following the emancipation of the serfs. He didn’t want his country turning into western Europe, he didn’t want to kill the soul, and he had this funny school, where he tried to preserve the old ways. Revolutionary without meaning to be, really, or so it seems. But those were the younger years, before he got religion and all the rest. In any case, it’s fascinating. )

3. Surrender

(From “The Thirty Seven Practices of The Path of the Bodhisattva.” Essential Teachings: His Holiness the Dalai Lama

AP literature and artifice

The Beauty and The Stranger
A character study of sorts, I wrote this for my English class, back in January. My teacher gave me a 91 on it. I find literary criticism sickening, do remember fateful words :I hate my English class, I really do, and I think literary criticism is disrespectful, even if I am the best, even if I am her “top student.” I hate it; I sit through those seminars wanting to be anywhere else, wanting to do math, wanting to read. I never want to write another essay as long as I live, and I told Jennifer to shoot me if I ever consider majoring in English. . . . You can tell, I suppose.

(You see February is hideous, and almost over, thank God.)

In his novella, The Stranger, French philosopher Albert Camus creates for his reader a protagonist at once immensely difficult to understand and unbelievably compelling. Patrice Meursault is indeed a stranger not only to the reader but to all the other characters in the story, none of whom come close to understanding him, and all of whom are, to varying degrees, afraid of him. Here is a man who is obviously quite intelligent and logical, who is honest almost to a fault, yet who seems at times entirely indecisive and apathetic about the path he will follow. Here is a man who is at once both completely confident in his understanding of the world he lives in and rather worried about how others will perceive him in uncomfortable situations. He is quiet, skeptical, and extremely in tune with his external environment. Though he can spend hours contemplating the scene outside his bedroom window, though he examines details with an almost superhuman specificity, and though he seems to see things that no one else can, he comes off to most of his peers as completely unfeeling and cold. The reader must ask himself again and again what must go on in the mind of this man who can attend the burial of his own mother with shedding a single tear, who can kill a man he did not even know without any obvious reason. In revealing to his readers even the smallest glimpse of this strange man�s inner struggle, Camus teaches them to examine not only the way in which they judge one another, but also the way in which they see the world.

In the building inhabited by our odd protagonist at the beginning of the story, lived a man for whom today’s animal rights activists would have had a lovely lynching party. The man’s dog, already plagued by a hideous skin disease, was subject to frequent beatings and all the emotional damage one might expect to accompany being called a bastard and lousy mongrel by the hand that fills the food dish. Monsieur Meursault, when asked by his friend Raymond, the notorious neighborhood warehouseman-pimp, whether he was disgusted by the way the old grump Salamano treated his mangy spaniel, answered simply in the negative. Meursault’s response here may hold an important key to his personality. Camus gives his reader many clues that Salamano and his spaniel are, in addition to being interesting comic characters, also players in an important metaphor. Salamano sees his dog not only as the pathetic brute he is, but also as a symbol of his life’s misfortunes. In beating and cursing his dog, the old man complains of all the brutal injustices of the world in which he is forced to live. The dog represents not only these sorrows, but also the cause of them, in this case, Salamano himself, who creates his own misery. When Salamano speaks of his dog’s main problem, old age, it is obvious that he is speaking of himself; later, when Meursault shakes the sad character’s hand, he mentions that he could feel the scales, bringing to mind the sores covering the spaniel’s body. Cooped up in his little apartment, quite alone with his dog after the death of his wife, left to think always of worries and fears, Salamano too had become ugly and sick.

Though Salamano hated his earthy troubles, kicked and mistreated his dog, he had become used to him and was terrified to leave him. When the spaniel was lost, Salamano, for the sake of pride, pretended to be glad to be rid of the burden. To Meursault alone, however, did he confess his attachment to the pet he’d had for so many years. In effect, his life, though hard, was precious to him, and he could not stand the thought of leaving it. Meursault seemed to understand all this, showing an insight into human nature deeper than that of the other characters in the book. Most importantly, he did not judge the old man harshly for mistreating his dog, just as he did not despise Raymond for the type of life he chose to lead. Meursault’s reluctance to pass judgment on anyone and his inability to blindly accept the judgments of society are aspects of his character of which the reader must be aware in order to fully appreciate the story. The irony of his views, when contrasted with the treatment he receives from his peers during his later trial, is striking.

One will catch a glimpse of Meursault’s mentality in carefully scrutinizing his relationship with Marie, his lover. Though he is obviously quite fond of the girl and enjoys the pleasures of a sexual relationship with her, he refuses to lead her on. He will not give her reason to think he harbors feelings for her of which he is not himself sure. When asked by her whether he loved her, he gave the unexpected response that to him “the sort of question had no meaning really” and that he “supposed [he] didn’t” (585). It would appear that he included in his list of skepticisms a disbelief in love. Such a thing may seem rather impossible, but left-brained people might explain the feeling as a chemical reaction, something scientific conjured up by the body to encourage reproduction. In any case, love was of little significance to Monsieur Meursault, and he made no attempt to hide this fact from his significant other. He responds quite similarly to her proposition of marriage, saying he finds the matter to be of little importance, but agreeing to go along with it if it would make her happy. What stands out in all this is how honestly and unaffectedly he says all these things, knowing the kind of reaction she could have to them.

Lifestyle also seems a matter of little importance to Camus’ protagonist. When asked by his boss if he would like to take a post in Paris, he responded in a completely indifferent manner, saying that “one never changed his way of life; one life was as good as another, and [his] present one suited [him] just fine” (589). Life for Meursault was a completely internal concept. He probably would have agreed with the old motto “wherever you go, there you are.” In his life, he seemed to strive for a certain degree of insensitivity to the outside world. This type of unaffectedness is shown most completely in the behavior of the “little robot woman” with whom Meursault dined one night in the first part of the story. She never spoke a word to him, appeared to be completely indifferent to his presence at her table, and yet she, unlike so many others on the story, seemed to inspire in him a genuine interest. He even went so far as to follow her as she left the restaurant. When the “robot woman” reappears later in the book, to witness Meursault’s trial, she is the only one of his acquaintances who appears to really see him for what he is. It is obvious the Camus meant to imply some sort of bond between the two. This bond consists of their mutual lack of dependence upon others.

While Meursault was for the most part unaffected by the actions, not to mention the opinions, of the people around him, he was rather decidedly affected by his physical environment. Throughout the novella, the main character makes reference to the color of the sky, the temperature of the air, the general atmosphere of the place in which the scene is taking place. At every important event of the story, from the funeral that opens it to the murder on the beach that it is its climax to the trial that marks the beginning of the ending, Meursault’s behavior is affected by the conditions of his environment. The sun, bearing down on the shoulders of Meursault as he takes his fateful steps along the beach toward the Arab who will become his victim, seems to take on the role of another character in the story.

The sun and extreme heat so well described in this climactic scene actually represent many factors in the struggle of Camus’ existential hero. The sun seems to drive him to commit his crime; it embodies a sense of the inevitable, as it pulls him toward his fate. The weight of the heat on his back mimics also the weight of the world on his shoulders. The good existentialist will recognize that Meursault is, single-handedly, responsible not only for the whole of his own fate but also for the fates of all those with whom he has ever come into contact. Simply by being present in their lives, Meursault has irreversibly changed the fates of Marie, Salamano, Raymond, the “little robot woman,” and his mother! He was conscious only of this unbearable weight, this terrible heat, as he walked along that beach. The murder never had anything to do with the Arab. Meursault had nothing against that man. “[His] impression was that the incident [between the Arab and Raymond] was closed, and [he] hadn’t given it a single thought” (600). What he wanted was the water from the stream in front of which the Arab was standing. He wanted “anything to be rid of the glare, the sight of women in tears, the strain and the effort � and to retrieve the pool of shadow by the rock and its cool silence” (600). For this, Camus’ protagonist, his stranger, killed a man.

It is through the sameness of the heat, the sameness of the weight felt by Meursault at the time, that the murder of the Arab and the funeral of his mother are related. At both times, he became disconnected from his actions by an extreme preoccupation with the sun, which was, of course, much more to him than a simple star in the sky. Following the killing and Meursault’s imprisonment, the two events became related in the eyes of everyone else in the story as well, as Meursault�s conduct toward his mother both before and after her death became a key factor in his prosecution. Meursault seemed to view the death of his mother at the beginning of the tale through the eyes of logic: he simply accepted it and saw no reason why he should trouble himself over the fact. Contrasted with the feelings of the young prisoner who stared passionately through the bars into the eyes of his own grieving mother as Meursault struggled to have a conversation with Marie, Meursault’s feelings toward his deceased mother do indeed seem cold.

While his lawyer and his questioners troubled with the question of his morality, Meursault underwent what could be described as a spiritual awakening in prison. He came to appreciate the liberty that he had lost. He went over in his head all the lovely details he had stockpiled through all his years of freedom. “[He] learned that even after a single day�s experience of the outside world a man could easily live a hundred years in prison” (612). Yet at the same time he began to accept his fate as a prisoner, observing that “had [he] been compelled to live in the trunk of a dead tree, with nothing to do but gaze up at the patch of sky directly overheard, [he'd] have gotten used to it by degrees” (610). And so, in prison, he began to lose his sense a time, awaiting the judgment to come.

When the trial finally arrived, it could only be described as ridiculous when critiqued from a legal standpoint. It was as if instead of being tried for murder, Monsieur Meursault stood in judgment for every aspect of his personality, from his intelligence to his disbelief in God. By this representation of the legal system, Camus points out man’s propensity to judge and to condemn those around him who are in any way different or strange. It matters not that the ones who are not ordinary may in effect be extraordinary, beautiful, genius. “To be great is to be misunderstood,” says Emerson, and how well this point is illustrated in Camus’ novella. The prosecuting attorney’s interpretation of the events leading up to Meursault’s killing the Arab is so far from accurate that the reader cannot help feeling sympathetic toward the defendant, who is being condemned to death by men who simply do not understand him. These people judging Meursault cannot possibly grasp the significance of his act, for they are guided by a completely different set of standards. The reader himself, who also sits in judgment of this character, in all likelihood has realized by this point that he does not understand either, though he has a much more complete knowledge of what was going on in the protagonist�s mind during his mother’s funeral and during his walk on the beach preceding the killing. Meursault is a stranger to his own acquaintances, because they cannot know what is going on in his head, and so are all men strangers, even among close friends.

In regard to Meursault, the reader must ask himself “Is he not beautiful?” as he reads, “I have never been able to regret anything in all my life. I’ve always been far too much absorbed in the present moment, of the immediate future, to think back” (626). “Is this not striking, in all its oddness”, asks the reader, with no one to answer him. Certainly, this man is guilty of murder, but he his being accused not of that, but of having no soul. “Who are they to judge Meursault’s morality?” one might ask, and in the same breath, “who am I to judge it?” As these men in the courtroom think him cold, unfeeling, and criminal to the very core, Meursault remembers. He has “memories of a life which was no longer [his] and had once provided [him] with the surest, humblest pleasures: warm smells of summer, [his] favorite streets, the sky at evening, Marie’s dresses and her laugh” (629). It is all so very ironic, and he sits there surrounded by people who detest him. Only when Meursault is sentenced to public decapitation does their hatred subside.

After the trial ended, Meursault found his hollow tree, a prison cell in which “lying on [his] back, [he could] see the sky, and there [was] nothing else to see” (631). He waited for death in isolation, feeling all the sensations he was accused of not having the ability to know: fear, hope, despair, perhaps even love for his mother, as he remembered things she told him as a boy. Through pondering the guillotine, thinking so often of death, he became more aware of that which he had always known: none of it mattered; it was all so very simple and amounted to little, these events, his so-called life. In this realization he found contentment. Still, the opiate of the masses was thrust in his face by the prison chaplain, who wanted to lessen his final sufferings. Meursault felt nothing but disgust with religion, as with all ideas society had attempted to force into his mind. All that mattered to him was that of which he could be certain, that which he had come to realize himself, through years of study, of life. All that mattered was the very fact that nothing mattered, not “the deaths of others, or a mother’s love, or God” (639). After this final enlightenment, Meursault felt that the weight which had once fell so heavily on his shoulders was gone, that his life, now light, had begun again.

Some readers may find this short novel depressing, but one can only marvel at the genius Camus displayed in capturing beauty in such an unexpected way. Meursault may not be an immediately likeable character, but he is without a doubt a masterfully created one. In bringing this incredible man to life in The Stranger, Camus has crafted a story that will inspire genuine thought in readers for years to come. One really cannot ask for more.

A sad reaction, at most

CAPTURE, and do not deny, I promise myself before writing the following. I did resolve to accept the things I cannot change. Remember that.

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Write a couple words, scribble through them, repeat: this is how I attempt to convey my current situation. The situation, of course, is vital to all else, and I cannot attempt philosophy or even imagery (again) before I have set it straight for you. Weeks ago, I was condemned. I am serving an emotional sentence here; the prison is my mind, barred with something so intense it can no longer be called drama.

“What happens when a noun marries a verb?”, asks Dr. Enola Mosley on her grammar tests, I’ve heard. And the articles are the bridesmaids. What is public education coming to? (Emotional sentence, you see, it was a pun.)

Well, my computer was broken, and it is of no consequence to the story, but I was without a computer for a week and spent my time in the library. Before that, even, I fasted for 48 hours, nothing but water. I’ve been uncommonly obsessed with purity, lately. Eating, to me, seems highly gross, for all its earthliness and bother. Why is there no spiritual counterpart, as with other earthly pleasures? Can it really even be described as a sumptuous thing, food? So I didn’t eat because I thought I would be less gross for it. (I didn�t do it long enough to really see the effects in that respect, but I plan on pursuing the matter further at some time when I will not be expected to concentrate on much else.) After eating again, I felt rather ill. In a way this is all relevant, it is, I suppose, the scene - purity issues, eating issues, ongoing illness (since November and counting), isolation and library time.

I’d like my condemner to believe secrecy is no cause for suspicion, though I cannot even believe it myself. What is it, really, to keep things tucked inside? For me, exalt. And yes, at times, shame. Do I not deserve to hold on to my shame, clasp it to my breast, like all other imperfect children? Only it is not always so, and nothing is black and white these days, when I sit alone, alone, like a fourteen year old with fishnet on her arms.

snapshot: There are study rooms with gigantic chalk boards on the fourth floor of the Henderson Library. The walls are clear so that the people (myself included) surveying the shelves of books outside (I was in the Russian Literature section. I will only read Russians now.) can see what is going on. This reminds me of the Georgia Governor�s Honors Program, and I wonder if the walls are clear so that people won’t use the study rooms to have sex in. At GHP everyone seemed preoccupied with finding places on campus in which one could hypothetically have sex without being caught by the mob the state had hired to keep “Georgia�s finest young minds” from being wasted on teenage mothers and such. On the day in question, it was not copulation but calculus going on in the fourth floor study room. Proudly I exclaimed to myself that I knew how to do every problem scrawled on the big chalkboard. Indeed, I made a perfect score on my last test, and this is comforting, when it seems I have lost my mind, the dramatic prison. Math will always, always, be clean, even imaginary numbers. I cling to these tangibles, even when not so fine.

You see the state of things, when my violet (streaked with blue) aura can no longer be massaged.

But when a sweet, deceivingly normal girl (her hair is straight and dark, she is no willow) gives me a handful of ponytail holders, saying she worries the plain rubber bands I use will cause split ends, I am touched. Old men in Lazy Boy recliners think these types of things no longer happen - I mean that a likable girl (even a perfectly friendly one) might dip into her own private collection of coiffeur accessories, probably immaculately organized by color and texture, to save shorter, less organized hair (belonging to someone who barely notices whether or not said hair is brushed these days) from a fate worse than death (as it is, of course, already dead). These glorified elastics now reside in the middle compartment of my pocketbook, but occasionally still get forgotten in the shadow of my rubber band word bracelets (sensuous and envy are worn almost always), which seem to be around. The girl, T… I have let read some of my writing. She is to niceness what I am to condescension, and I admire that. Let it be known, I admire her for her sweetness and her dancing, for her generosity with hair thingies.

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A realization of late: Though I am so often occupied by thoughts of art and of science (see past entries, from when I had a goal, of some sort), the science of art terrifies me, while the art of science does not. All is well when polyps resemble flowers and lab technique resembles ballet. However, I happened to be looking through a certain “student’s guide to painting” the other day, as I should have been painting my own abstractly magnified house fly (an electron micrograph really - to tie in with the theme), and found myself shocked. Here were multiple pages on how one should lay out a pallet, as if the proximity of the colors to one another were absolutely vital. There are actually “schools” of pallet organization, yes, and it is quite the serious matter. The same holds true for brushes and canvas prepping. The act of painting itself is even more odd - apparently there are various steps of immaturity a painting simply must go through before it can reach completion. It is a process, you see. Now this all worries me, as I think of art in the context of the creative spark hypothesis, that one night or another something will click and inspiration will occur and all together there shall be light, from this light shall come forth Art. I’d like to think of greatness in this sense as almost a fluke, but I see this is not so, it takes work work work, and that does not appeal to my sedentary state. I want to believe creation is the easiest, most natural thing in the world. More natural even than simplicity, a concept that is driving me mad.

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“She has been in despair so often she has train tracks across her face,” comments my mother, calling me, yes, Anna. A joke.

Stale soup: a tapestry

Static or stagnant, I am cut off, decidedly, and rather absent is the part of my mind that drives me to create beauty. Instead there is this terrible yearning, and I can think of nothing but fairy tales, stories I found in the eyes of a man, the hair of a princess, all in the past. Tell me what beauty is, I know you know, I think I may have taught you myself, before I slipped off track. I sit on my bed, wrapped in a pink towel, my legs under the bottom sheet, and wait. I sleep days through.

stale soup (tapestry of late January through today, I’m afriad):

Fungal life cycles vary by division, but generally start with haploid mycelia. Early reproduction is usually asexual and later reproduction is sexual. The sexual cycle involves cell fusion (plasmogamy) and nuclear fusion (karyogamy), with an intervening dikaryotic stage (2 haploid nuclei). The diploid stage is short-lived and rapidly undergoes meiosis to produce haploid spores.

It seems that Tolstoy’s novel (A. Karenina) has simply been sitting around on some bookshelf all these years waiting for me to read it, just as Jennifer must have been created for the sole purpose of being my friend and teaching me things. It is perfectly lovely, I pronounce emphatically to all my peers. I feel like a child who has just been given a new toy. It is not just any toy; it’s certainly not a plastic Happy Meal toy. This novel, the “it cannot get better” version, is the doll that blinks her eyes, drinks her milk, and sings a favorite lullaby, all while whispering the meaning of life under her breath.

My name is Katharine and I am many things - sensitive, pretentious, aggressive, sweet, quaint, sensual, and alive, among others. My name is Katharine and this is the best I can do this time.

There are three plant divisions of bryophtes: Bryophyta (mosses), Hepatophyta (liverworts), and Anthocerophyta (hornworts). They have wazy cuticles and gametangia (male gametangium = antheridium, female = archegonium) that protect the gametes and embryo on land, but still require a moist habitat for fertilization and imbibing of water in the absense of vascular tissue.

Where we are today in relation to the human genome is analogous to where we were immediately following the completion of the Lewis and Clark expedition (in terms of land exploration). We�ve got a good idea what�s out there, but we�ve barely begun to utilize that knowledge.

Levin grips his scythe and mows his wheat, absorbing himself fully in the movement of his arms, the motion of his tool, and the very tangibility of all that he is doing. One sometimes wonders if, in leading a scholarly life, over ever really acheives anything. What are words and thoughts, which cannot be touched, when compared with a freshly mowed field, the benefits of which can be quickly listed out and logically explained? (By “one,” I mean myself, of course). It is a hard reality to face, this notion that perhaps ignorance really is bliss, that the more naive a person is, in the intellectual sense of the word, the happier that person is. I (one person) too, need simplicity, serenity, and so I sit in my art classes at school attempting to make Japanese scrolls with trees, gondolas, and lots of negative space, as a means to that end. I meditate. I sit still. Yet, perhaps what I really need is a good scythe and some friendly peasants to teach me how to use it.

When and if we do clone a human, who will set the guidelines? Because all these issues are relatively new, there are no established laws saying what is and isn�t acceptable. (Bio-ethics is the field to be in for students who want to write philosophy themselves instead of just digesting things written ages ago.) The Founding Fathers certainly never envisioned any of this genetic debate when they wrote the Constitution. We�re going to need people who understand genetic engineering to make the laws that govern its uses. Due to the increasing presence of genetic issues in the lives of people who know nothing about the techniques involved in genetic engineering and may not even know the basic laws of heredity, there will be a need for writers, politicians, and lawyers who can bridge the gap between the research world and society at large.

Is it not true that in any activity, from the intensely physical to the intensely artistic, those very moments occur in which a force outside the self seems to take over and everything comes together in perfect harmony? I’ve often felt, in playing my flute with the Wind Ensemble, that the moments during which I am most immersed in the music, most satisfied with my performance, are times when I cease to be Katharine playing her part on her instrument and become instead only a small part in a much greater whole. The music comes of itself from this group of which I am a member, while I do nothing but move my fingers on the keys of my instrument and let my eyes travel across the staff from one black note the next. It is only in those times that music really seems to make sense.

There are four divisions of gymnosperms (plants which have seeds, but not ovaries), three of which are very small (Cycadophyta, Ginkophyta, and Gnetophyta - see fig 27.16) and one of which is not (Coniferophyta). Conifers are plants with cones as reporductive structures, and include pines, firs, spruce, cedars, and cypresses. They are evergreens with needle-shaped leaves adapted to dry conditions. Conifers are heterosporous; male and female gametophytes develop from different types of spores produced on different cones. See Life Cycle of a Pine (Fig 27.17 p. 563).

Some of the best writing I’ve ever produced has come during moments of half-consciousness. Often I will find old pieces and have not the slightest idea when or how they came to be written.

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This is not one of those moments. This is not one of those moments. This is not one of those moments. I am lost. All flow is gone. I suppose this is honesty